sometimes, i think the sky is pink.

mood : doubtful
music : Daisy – Karine Polwart

I am awfully tired and I wonder why I just spent so long finishing an essay that is due next friday. I also wonder why it is I find joy in doing work, both those that need to be done and those that, eventually will need to be done.

Perhaps it is not joy but rather it keeps me busy because I know without something to do, I fall into this oblivious space and that would make me feel terribly emo again and I would probably start writing about my life indirectly – like now but then again not like now because usually when I do that, I never really use a first person view. I like referring to myself as somebody I don’t really know, and watch my own thousand of stories unfold into .doc and .rtf before my very fingers. And eyes, I suppose. Though I feel like I am getting blinder by the minute.

That is like a trap, I must warn you. Although it deceptively seems like an okay past time it is in fact a bottomless hole which is awfully difficult to climb out of, and hence this rotates and swings back to the importance of doing work.

Many say I have no life. I might have to agree partially on that one. But then again no, and its not because I like the satisfaction of making others wrong (you must remember, that honour only applies to a very select few) – though now that I think of it, that is quite evil but since that is not the point I am trying to make I shall think no further – but simply because I love what I am doing right now.

I don’t mean right now, right now. You know what I mean.

Even though at first, you may not like it – I certainly did not welcome the idea of working till my fingers bruised with ink – sometimes, you do what you’ve got to do. And eventually, you start to realise that in whatever you do, you do it for the Lord. And that is where the joy starts to set in.

It doesn’t matter what, it can be anything – work or play or ..uh work&play? Haha. You see, the great thing is not the joy found in the things we do, but rather the joy found in the Lord. These things are merely just channels, and in fact we should make every single thing around us that we do vessels of praise to the Lord.

So keep that smile on your face hahaha(:

In everything you do, do it in the Lord’s name.

its called a mayer frenzy.

mood : needing to play.

Its the third week of school and I’m relatively tired but yet I still feel like doing more work because it simply isn’t a nice feeling not knowing what to do next.

School isn’t bad but it isn’t the same. ): but ..

God is an unchanging God, yesterday today and forever. It really amazing to know that wherever you go, He is with you. That He cares for you, and lifts you up when you’re down. I would not be able to count the many times has He rescued me. Like today. It was only through His grace that I managed to track down my GDC, and hence avoiding the alternative die hard plan of starving myself during recess to save money because I really do like the prata.

But that aside, right now. I am just in .. awe. This is the inevitable point in my entry where I simply am unable to express myself in words. And I stare blankly, at ths illuminating screen, pondering. Pondering on what I am actually thinking about. Aah bap bap. Haha.

“But I trust you, O Lord
And I say, ‘You are my God.’ ” – Psalms 31:14

there’s nothing my God cannot do(:

here comes the sun, little darling

mood : sleepless
music : Sometimes I’m Happy – John Pizzarelli

I have just realised that this blog really says nothing much about me. Then again, I always knew that it was that way, and I wanted it that way. But since so many people have been asking hurhur and after so many times of explaining to them they can’t get it -actually, I don’t blame you because I don’t get it myself – for the first time ever, I will actually write something worth reading. Lucky you.

I will not be able to live with music that is not to my liking I have this strange inclination towards bands which not alot of people lisiten to and in my opinion they are the best because fame has not gotten into their heads and neither has commercialism and hence their works are truly about the music and nothing else and that is why they are the best but once everyone else starts liking them one or two is fine but like if everyone starts making them the ‘in’ music then I would have to abandon them and go find another band to listen to I don’t know why either I also have this awesome ability – alliteration again — and again! – to stuff a lot of things into my mouth and also I can eat alot if I really have to its something which I like to refer to as the art of eating especially for tofu which is very cool because I am such a cool person which you cannot deny because only cool people have a drawer full of colourful stripey toesocks but then again because I suck at almost everything that also makes me a loser but since everyone loves me that makes me cool again haha I also have this phoebia about cycling on pedestrian pavements because I always think that I will fall into the drain or road which is really weird because the road is the best place to cycle in my opinion cos I mean, you can’t fall any further than the road itself and I would rather have the danger of speeding cars next to me than the stupid drain I bet you never knew that Koko Krunch is my favourite cereal although now I suffer from bit of digestion problems so now I cannot really eat it in the mornings which is an extremely pitiful situation because then I would have to eat toast and scrambled eggs which I hate which is odd because I like toast by itself, and I like scrambled eggs, I just hate toast and scrambled eggs –

Now you all don’t have any reason to say that my posts don’t make sense, because I already know it doesn’t make sense because it’s not supposed to make sense but this also happens to be perhaps one of my most sensible posts so there you have it! .. You know everything – well not everything, but I made sure that they were all useless – about me. Haha/

..alright, alright. How about – I love happy times. They just make you want to eat sunshine dipped lollipops and roll around in green grass as if nothing ever happened.

See. It was worth reading after all. Hahahaha.